Everything's Bigger

#7 Friends In No Places: How the Pandemic Is Challenging Men's Friendships

Episode Summary

Are men struggling to maintain friendships without excuses for spending time together, like going to the bar or watch the game together? Hosts Bo Méndez and Jackson Bird discuss the larger trend among men as well as how it’s played out in their own lives, and what we can do to be better at connecting with each other.

Episode Notes

Are men struggling to maintain friendships without excuses for spending time together, like going to the bar or watch the game together? Hosts Bo Méndez and Jackson Bird discuss the larger trend among men as well as how it’s played out in their own lives, and what we can do to be better at connecting with each other.

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Stuff we mentioned:

Men find new ways to bond during the pandemic (Washington Post)

The Pandemic Is Resetting Casual Friendships (The Atlantic) 

Croc balls (Etsy)

Scientists Accidentally Discover Strange Creatures Under a Half Mile of Ice (Wired) 

Episode Transcription

[theme music plays]

Bo: hello and welcome to everything's bigger!

 

Jack: a podcast about my---(laughs) [record

scratch] I'm sorry I started to mispronounce

 

"masculinity"

Bo: a podcast about my nuts!

 

[tv signal beep]

[tv static]

 

[fancy music plays]

(laughter)

 

Jack: did you see that they've got um croc

balls now? like you know the the truck balls

 

Bo: (laughs) what?

Jack: that you can put on your trailer. I

 

mean i'd say "you can" i mean i suppose you

can. i don't imagine you would want to but

 

they have them for crocs now

Bo: Noooo (laughing)

 

take me now

Jack: yeah so––

 

Bo: i'm ready to leave

Jack: (laughs) i'll put a link to those in

 

the show notes in case anyone wants to see

them

 

Bo: jesus christ every day we stray further

from god's light

 

Jack: i-i don't know why i didn't suggest

that for the entire topic today actually

 

(both laugh)

Bo: you gotta bring them up that's you're

 

just the tip now, croc balls

Jack: oh yeah. i should've. (laughs)

 

it's not just the tip though, bo. it's croc

balls.

 

Bo: yeah it's the opposite side.

Jack: all right now that we got that out of

 

the way

Bo: croc ball's deep!

 

(laughter)

Jack: title of the episode!

 

Bo: oh jesus all right. should we start to

try the the intro again ?

 

Jack: yeah go for it sorry

Bo: all right all right

 

[theme music plays again]

Bo: hello and welcome to everything's bigger!

 

Jack: a podcast about masculinity for dudes

of all genders who ask "why?"

 

Bo: and so here's the thing about masculinity––

here we are in the dead of winter and i'm

 

realizing that masculinity is a whole lot

like a snow drift in about, i don't know,

 

march, april if the snow is still there you

see that there's a whole layer of this like

 

frozen kind of slushy white stuff but the

deeper you dig the more weird sh-- you find!

 

sometimes you find garbage from january. earlier

today i saw a piece of a christmas tree sticking

 

out of there! and sometimes no matter how--no

matter what you do, you can't avoid it, you're

 

gonna get down deep enough to find some sh--

some real frozen sh-- and that's what we do

 

on this show is we start at that top layer

and we chip away and we find everything that

 

we can find to really unpack the whole concept

Jack: well with that beautiful portrait of

 

new york city that Bo just painted for us...

(laughs) well we are your hosts i'm jackson

 

bird

Bo: and i'm bo méndez and i'm sorry for how

 

visceral that was.

Jack: i'm glad we marked this as explicit

 

too. a lot of swearing right up at the top

uh but anyways uh today we are discussing,

 

surprise surprise, the pandemic! but from

a masculinity tinted lens, as most episodes

 

we do are uh we're gonna be talking about

the ways in which men generally i guess, but

 

you know not not everyone uh not all men.

(snorts) hashtag not all men, ugh man

 

Bo: thank you for taking the words out of

my mouth

 

Jack: uhhhh no but how a lot of men have struggled

to maintain friendships and therefore you

 

know maintain some good mental health throughout

the pandemic so we're going to be talking

 

about a lot of different things that kind

of play out from that general thought but

 

first it's been a long time since we have

recorded an episode which you know all of

 

you regular listeners will know that a lot

of people been asking when we're gonna have

 

a new episode but also we are very aware of

how long it's been based on how difficult

 

this has been to do!

Bo: pages have flown off of the calendar um

 

empires have risen and fallen

Jack: that's possibly true. little too real

 

Bo: yeah oh um eesh but yeah it's it's been

a hot minute and and i like the fact that

 

you brought up like regular listeners will

know but i i think that one thing i want to

 

to talk about um in this kind of like you

know pre-main segment time while we're catching

 

up on like what we've been doing in the last

few months. when was the last time we recorded

 

one of these? for halloween right? so that's--

Jack: yeah but we probably recorded in like

 

september

Bo: yeah so that's like four-ish five-ish

 

months ago. i don't even know. i'm bad at

time math, i've realized

 

Jack: which yeah in in pandemic years that's

about like three decades, i think

 

Bo: yeah something like that um easily a few

presidential terms and probably the span between

 

Tool albums um but i will say that one thing

that has happened um in the interim was uh

 

i was on a little game show uh called uh -- it

has a weird name it's like it's like gia pard?

 

giopardo? gepetto?

Jack: i've yeah i've never been able to pronounce

 

it correctly. Geopardé?

Bo: Gerard de Pardeux?

 

Jack: Ahh yeah oui oui. i'm just offending

all french people now. i apologize

 

Bo: Hon hon! it's okay we're like i don't

know i'm like one nineteenth french. um not

 

really. uh also that's a that's a terrible

fraction. uh but i'm bringing that up because

 

i will say that one thing that was kind of

what was cool from that experience--the whole

 

experience was super cool but i actually got

to talk about the podcast on my little interview.

 

so if there is––

Jack: I totally forgot about that!

 

Bo: if there are any new listeners tuning

in because of that, thanks for tuning in!

 

Sorry i got that voice to men question wrong

and welcome to everything's bigger!

 

Jack: (laughs) um i'm so glad you brought

that up mostly because i was going to tee

 

you up to bring it up so just well done self-advocating

for yourself there on the coolest thing that

 

you did like i don't even know what i've done

in this time because all i can think is like

 

well bo's been on jeopardy and it was really

cool. that's what i've done. i watched Bo

 

on Jeopardy. i tweeted about it a lot uh and

i did actually record when you mentioned the

 

podcast but i have forgotten to annoy everyone

by bombarding their feeds with it every single

 

day--

Bo: we'll make sure to attach that––

 

Jack: which was my intention

Bo: but i i refuse to believe that the highlight

 

of the last four or five months or so for

you was watching me be on tv for 22 minutes.

 

so what have you been up to? what's what's

what's new in your world?

 

Jack: i mean i think i think you were vastly

overestimating how i've been spending my lockdown

 

because that really was a highlight. the highlight

perhaps. um no i mean you know i had the holidays.

 

pandemic version of the holidays but i still

love the holidays so that was definitely a

 

highlight for me. i love christmas and halloween.

i you know i just i've been making a lot of

 

podcasts mostly i think. i already made a

podcast today. this is my second podcast of

 

the day now. um been appearing on other people's

podcasts. i think i like this yeti microphone

 

is basically just like attached to my mouth

now.

 

(Bo laughs)

just kind of hangs off of it in a human centipede-esque

 

way

Bo: oh good lord we're just killing it with

 

the with the visuals today

Jack: i gotta say if if we had regular listeners

 

they're all gone at this point

Bo: bye! don't let the door hit you with the

 

good lord and split you

Jack: you know i i feel like you know we were

 

talking a little bit before we started recording

um of we are both just like... we've got a

 

lot going on and we've got a lot to say about

the main topic today but have both really

 

been struggling to come up with anything else

to talk about uh or you know say anything

 

about what's going on in our lives because

i think i i i mean i guess speaking for myself

 

maybe kind of hitting that like pandemic wall

of people ask me how i am and what's been

 

going on in my life and i'm just like i don't

know. i have nothing to say on that topic.

 

next question please.

Bo: yeah it can be tough like you know and

 

that's probably a good i don't know way to

way to maybe segue into some of that stuff

 

is that now when you when you get the chance

to talk to a family member or a friend or

 

even a co-worker it's like hey how's it going?

and the answer is i found at least some variation

 

of like "well it's going." it's like i'm here

and you know it really it's something that

 

you know maybe this is uh one of those moments

of uh collective resonance where anybody who

 

can answer that question that's going to be

the answer is, well i'm here

 

Jack: i did see--well two points on that one

is i got an email from someone today um vanessa

 

zoltan for anyone who knows, co-host of harry

potter in the sacred text, and she said that

 

a friend of hers started referring referring

to it as "COVID well" like "how are you?"

 

"oh i'm COVID well" which just kind of is

like acknowledging everything that's going

 

on but like that said i'm doing okay kind

of thing yeah um but i've also oh go ahead

 

Bo: i was just gonna say stills trucking

Jack: yeah yeah oh i might start saying that

 

i used to say that one i like that one. trucking.

still trucking. uh but i have seen people

 

talking about how it's kind of nice that it

feels like you're allowed to say you're not

 

okay now. which i don't know that i have personally

experienced but i think as a cultural shift

 

i definitely have um and i would agree i think

that's cool if people can be more honest uh

 

in response to the question of "how are you?"

i think that's definitely good

 

Bo: yeah that's that's actually a really good

point. like i do think--i've noticed that

 

as well is that they're you know, i guess

it depends on on the relationship you have

 

with the person that you're talking to. like

maybe there are professional acquaintances

 

or something like that that you just don't

want to get that uh at least that i've had

 

a few of those uh but i do think that it's

more accepted and people have a more compassionate

 

response if they ask how you're doing and

your response is well not great because yeah

 

to an extent you know for for some reason

or another unless you're jeff bezos or something

 

like that, most of us are doing a version

of not great but we're we're still trying

 

to figure out how we can soldier on um and

and find our place.

 

Jack: i wonder if part of that too is kind

of the solidarity in it. like of course there

 

are people who uh are struggling much more

in um certain ways from the pandemic right

 

now or have other non-pandemic related things

but like everyone is going through the pandemic

 

in some way and so if you ask someone how

they are and they admit that they're--it's

 

not going great, like it's not a shock to

you um and you have at least a little bit

 

of common ground from which you can you know

then open up a conversation and check in on

 

them make sure you're okay. whereas before

if you were to get the response from someone

 

that they're not great that kind of like could

shake your world a little bit. like you're

 

like okay i was just doing the formality thing

here and now it got real

 

Bo: (laughs) it's it's interesting like i

i it makes me think of um a tweet that i saw

 

a lot a long time ago because of course i

i just see tweets and memes um but it was

 

like noting how uh attitudes had shifted toward

therapy and it was like in the 60s or 70s

 

someone would be like "oh yeah i heard that

they were in (whispers) therapy" and now it's

 

just like "yo you wouldn't believe the sh--

my therapist said today" like we've become

 

so much more open and accepting of people

seeking out that kind of help and it makes

 

me wonder with this kind of landscape, what

does our---what do, what does the future of

 

even our casual uh interactions look like

when we've spent now almost a year by the

 

time this episode airs probably a year um

in in a state of like it's okay to not be

 

okay as being kind of like a a general rule?

Jack: yeah i i really wonder about that too

 

and Bo that was such a seamless transition

into our main segment that i don't know if

 

you did that on purpose or not but well done

uh

 

Bo:absolutely accidental but i'll take the

credit, bam!

 

Jack: i think we should move on to our main

segment of the day Bo: yeah let's let's get

 

into it

(music plays)

 

Jack: so today like i said at this at the

top we want to talk a little bit about men

 

maintaining or not maintaining friendships

throughout the pandemic and i mean i think

 

it's something that we've both observed in

our own lives or in people that we know um

 

but also Bo you had found a really interesting

article kind of talking about this um using

 

a few different men as examples. do you want

to kind of like summarize--we'll put the article

 

in the show notes but if you want to sort

of summarize some of your takeaways from it

 

or like your impressions of the situation

overall?

 

Bo: yeah yeah for sure so this this article

so this is uh this--what was the title of

 

it? uh "no game days. no bars. the pandemic

is forcing some men to realize they need deeper

 

friendships" what a title. um and it actually

came out in in november so like you know this

 

is around the end of thanks of the thanksgiving

period as we're

 

Jack: still more recent than our last episode

Bo: yeah true still more reason than our last

 

episode. i love how you earlier by the way

you said i love all the holidays, halloween,

 

and that reminded me that oh yeah halloween's

actually happened since then.

 

Jack: yeah i had a lot of trouble with that

like over the summer. i kept forgetting easter

 

it happened.

Bo: yeah it's it's so weird to like look back

 

at your at your milestones and be like oh

wait no no we passed that we passed that a

 

minute ago um

Jack: i also had a weird thing at the start

 

of the year where i kept thinking it was summer

to the point that like i was trying to convince

 

a friend to go do some outdoor dining with

me on a 20 degree day because i was like "it's

 

like 60 degrees it's springtime let's go like

have a beer outsid"e and she was like "it's

 

freezing out. what is wrong with you?" but

i just genuinely kept thinking it was summertime

 

Bo: i've been cold for four months you're

alone on that one

 

Jack: i don't know i don't know what's wrong

with me

 

Bo: but no like time is so rubbery and so

like so like the more you think about it the

 

more you realize like time is a social construct

right? like there's there's there's there's

 

not a whole lot aside from the position of

the sun that says how long a day is supposed

 

to be um and like we're really really feeling

that right now. um but anyway.

 

Jack: uh yeah sorry tangent

Bo: no no halloween was great by the way dear

 

listeners. uh we we actually i think this

is even this is before this before i knew

 

i was going to be on jeopardy and definitely

before i had done it and couldn't tell anybody

 

but i actually did a a halloween-themed round

of like a jeopardy-esque game. i couldn't

 

figure out how to do all the rules but i like

made a game board and it was all themed and

 

that all that kind of stuff and you know if

you're curious about it, let me know and i'll

 

share it? i don't know. it had stuff about

werewolves. anyway

 

Jack: it was yeah it was, no it was it was

really fun. it was really well planned out

 

and i don't say that just because i won

Bo: that's right you did win!

 

Jack: Yep.

Bo: totally forgot. See time is weird! and

 

because time is weird and our social interactions

are weird this article that came out at the

 

end of november as we were about to go into

the uh the rest of the holiday season uh really

 

struck a nerve for me um and in it the author

uh, let's see, samantha schmidt interviews

 

a number of men talking about you know what

their relationships with their guy friends

 

predominantly have been like since the pandemic

hit and you know what has changed and also

 

kind of like what got us into this situation?

and so she makes some interesting points um

 

and of course she's citing other experts that

are that are in the article so when you get

 

the when you when we drop the link to that

you'll see in the text who the experts are

 

and what the you know the the deeper writings

are but essentially she brings up the point

 

that a lot of uh women typically have face-to-face

relationships where you'll meet up and you'll

 

have dinner or go for a walk or have lunch

and talk about stuff whereas guys tend to

 

have what she calls shoulder to shoulder relationships

and that's where you'll meet up at a bar to

 

like watch a game or you know uh to you'll

go to a concert or you'll play video games

 

together or you'll go hang out and watch a

movie and so like the actual interaction the

 

conversation is less the main event so much

as the shared experiences and with the fact

 

that bars have been closed or just not a great

place to go to and you know i'm not much of

 

a sports dude to begin with but like you can't

really go to a game um i'm definitely a concert

 

guy and i haven't been to a concert in over

a year. um with the lack of those experiences

 

a lot of the men that are interviewed in this

piece feel like their friendships are becoming

 

more difficult. and it goes into like what

have they gotten to do instead of that. and

 

so it's like online gaming has come into play

for some of these people um who like you know

 

would normally be doing couch co-op or something

like that um they they've like gotten more

 

into online gaming and and stuff that you

can do um from a distance or even let's plays

 

where you just like sit down and watch somebody

else play the game in order to have that feeling

 

of interaction and that's something that i've

been getting into a little bit uh i'm i'm

 

about as much of a gamer as i am a sports

guy i suppose but i've been playing more video

 

games recently just because it gives me something

to do um and i've been actually watching a

 

number of my friends get involved on like

twitch streaming and just like showing up

 

to support and be like "yeah you do that thing!"

um but also like whatsapp groups and group

 

chats and that sort of thing have become a

place where uh men are actually getting to

 

not just maintain the friendships they've

already had but also experience them on a

 

deeper level because that's kind of another

thing that gets brought up in this article

 

is that a lot of men their friendships are,

i don't want to say... superficial is the

 

word that comes to mind i'm not trying to

discount the friendships but it's that they

 

don't really talk about the deep stuff the

heavy stuff. they don't talk about what's

 

going on in their lives. like one of the one

of the men that's interviewed uh has he his

 

relationship ends so he has to move out on

his own and he kind of like unloads on some

 

of the people that he does online gaming with

being like you don't even know why we broke

 

up i bet. like ask me how we broke up. and

you know some of these places which have been

 

primarily for joking around, ribbing each

other, you know you're really only using the

 

group chat to set up your plans for when you're

actually meeting in person um they become

 

a place where now these deeper interactions

are actually starting to take place and i

 

think it's it's really interesting to see

you know how um masculine relationships friendships

 

between men have started to in some cases

evolve um since the pandemic has has been

 

going on for as long as it has and then something

that was of particular interest to me is the

 

fact that how do we get here in the first

place? um

 

Jack: yeah that's what i was gonna say

Bo: yeah so like um part--one of the things

 

that gets brought up is that like friendships

between men they lack uh ground rules and

 

so sometimes men don't necessarily know how

to get into a new friendship and that's something

 

that i've really had a lot of times um with

like some of my friends who who now i'm happy

 

to say are really close friends but like you

know for me it's like i meet somebody i think

 

they're just super f----n cool and i want

to be their friend but i'm really worried

 

about coming on too strong and seeming like

clingy or needy, and so i will kind of like

 

lock it down and then you end up with a friendship

where it feels um more difficult to have a

 

deeper interaction with somebody uh because

you don't want to, you don't want to freak

 

them out like um you don't want to you don't

want to all of a sudden spring that sort of

 

stuff on them and so you end up with this

kind of like arms length type thing and and

 

and i'll be honest like that that's how my

friendship with you started i was like, jack's

 

cool as f---! i don't want to like like creep

this dude out by being like be my friend and

 

like my friend nick who actually like performed

my marriage um that's how my friendship with

 

him started out. i was just like dude you're

so cool! like you know you know all this stuff

 

about like vintage guitars and motorcycles

and i just want you to teach me um but i was

 

worried that he would think that i was like

stalking him or something like that so i kind

 

of put the lid on it and as a result you know,

luckily these these two examples, obviously

 

i'm you know in a podcast with jack and nick

performed my marriage um they've become stronger

 

but i do think that that is a common experience

for lots of men where you know they'll meet

 

somebody that they want to have that kind

of like meaningful friendship with but it's

 

hard to get it off the ground because society

to an extent has taught men you know emotional

 

intimacy is not what men do. so all the stuff

that you imagine about having deep conversations...

 

don't rush into it. and so you have like a

bunch of arms-length friendships um that now

 

in the pandemic are being kind of tested um

as people you know we need each other we need

 

people we need connection we need networks

for you know to use a buzzword um and so people

 

are, men especially, are trying to figure

out ways to forge those and ways to strengthen

 

those in a scenario that is not conducive

to that

 

Jack: yeah yeah, i i want to go back to kind

of what you were saying about the um the--the

 

the fear of being like clingy or coming on

too strong um has made me think of two different

 

things: one you know i think what you were

saying there at the end about society sort

 

of telling men that like you can't have these

emotional connections with men, that you know

 

oh that's gay or that's feminine. you know

you should be able to be this independent

 

you know like rugged individualist man and

be able to do everything on your own like

 

i i think that is definitely more of it than

necessarily um a lack of ground rules. um

 

because i don't think there's any ground rules

for other genders being friends with each

 

other. um like i don't think there's necessarily

rules that exist there at all, but i do think

 

like you know from my own experiences---and

this is not across the board we're generalizing

 

a lot on this episode but like--

Bo: that's what we do!

 

Jack: yeah (laughs) my--in in my friendships

with um with definitely with women and with

 

a lot of non-binary people as well like it

just kind of everything comes a little bit

 

more naturally and i feel like there's not

as much self-consciousness happening there,

 

whereas with men i definitely feel what you

have felt as well of the like uh is am i gonna

 

like freak him out? and i think especially

being both trans and bi i'm always scared

 

of freaking out like cis straight men of--or

even not straight like of just like making

 

them think that i like have a crush on them

instead of just being like, you're cool like

 

let's be friends. um so i have like a lot

of paranoia like wrapped up in that when i

 

am trying to navigate these kinds of friendships.

Bo: well that yeah yeah that that's really

 

honestly calling it out. like i i was talking

about like uh lack of ground rules but that's

 

where the lack of ground rules stems from

and that's me kind of quoting quoting from

 

the article because the article actually goes

further into that and says that that that

 

um you know lack of guidance feeling is really

grounded in homophobia. it's grounded in uh

 

a an attempt to not appear feminine. all these

things that you just said that's really you

 

know that's that's the nougaty center of that

is is is this stuff that is uh deeply ingrained

 

by society into men and it makes it makes

things more difficult because of those exact

 

reasons. like um you know, like i don't know,

i i i guess i guess i don't want to say that

 

that's how i felt when i was entering into

into some of these friendships that i that

 

i mentioned because i don't want to admit

i suppose to deeply internalized homophobia,

 

but like nick especially--um i feel like,

i feel like if if he listens to this i don't

 

think he'll mind me bringing it up or something

like that but uh one of the things that we

 

bonded over at first was Scrubs and like the

relationship between turk and jd like confronts

 

that pretty head-on and he was like yeah dude

like when you have a good guy friend it's

 

guy love and it's okay and like there's all

these these all these sort of situations that

 

uh we're raised in that tell us that it's

not okay and it makes it harder for us to

 

develop those friendships later on. um so

yeah like it is that you know you might not

 

be a homophobic person but the internalized

homophobia that so many of us can't subscribe

 

to or have kind of like forced onto us or

or you know impose on to us um it makes it

 

more difficult um to forge friendships because

you'll be worried that the person that you

 

want to be friends with thinks you have a

crush on them and it it it makes it makes

 

you know connections and uh relationships

that should come really naturally have this

 

extra layer that you have to work through

in order to get them started

 

Jack: yeah and i i don't want to delve too

deeply into this for this episode because

 

i think we should do like a whole episode

on it at some point. um i think we've talked

 

about it, but this is the complicated feelings

that i have with regards to like shipping

 

male characters. like when there are characters

uh like i you just said their names but i

 

forgot their names on Scrubs

Bo: Turk and JD!

 

Jack: yeah like shipping the two of them because

like oh they have this great chemistry together

 

and they clearly love each other as friends

but like oh maybe they could be boyfriends

 

too and like i... i think... you know shipping

queer relationships where they don't exist

 

in the canon of the tv show or the movie or

the books or something is awesome. that is

 

a huge thing i've done throughout my life

i think we need more queer representation.

 

i think it's great to kind of challenge that

idea here and there. um but also sometimes

 

i think it does a disservice to healthier

relationships like friendships that we could

 

see between men. like i think because it is

so rare to see men being like affectionate

 

and loving towards each other as friends if

you see a hint of that immediately you're

 

like oh they must be in love and not necessarily

in a homophobic way even in a you know a desiring

 

that kind of way and thinking that that would

be awesome, but like that that just sort of

 

perpetuates the myth that men can't be like

platonically loving to each other or what

 

have you you know? and so it's this this has

always frustrated me because i like am strongly

 

in support of both sides i guess.

Bo: yeah well since you since you bring that

 

up the the the example that comes to mind

for me is both. uh which is lord of the rings.

 

like sam and frodo i ship. i think they are

deeply in love, but lord of the rings is often

 

cited or at least the movies because i'm uncultured

and i haven't read all the books yet i'm like

 

halfway through the hobbit it's taking forever.

um

 

Jack: i'm halfway through two towers but i

have been for seven years

 

Bo: (laughs) it's it's a long haul guys. it's

just like it's like watching the expanded

 

editions but it's on paper! um but the movies

are heralded as examples of positive male

 

relationships because if you take out you

know the obvious like you know kind of tongue-in-cheek

 

stuff that people say about sam and frodo

um the relationship that you see between like

 

uh between like aragorn and legolas or legolas

and gimli and how aragorn gets super torn

 

up when boromir dies spoiler alert. um like

the way that they will touch each other and

 

hug each other and they'll cry when they think

that one of them has gotten hurt and everyone

 

mourns over gandalf when he falls off uh the

bridge in in the mines and it's like these

 

are more positive role models that you can

see and that you don't have to turn them into

 

a ship. it's just good friendship. it's good

companionship. it is uh-oh but say the title

 

of the movie fellowship

Jack: (laughs) of the ring. in case anyone

 

didn't get that. i i find that jokes are often

funnier when you explain them afterwards

 

Bo: (laughs) Oh man.

Jack: but no i mean--

 

Bo: a healthy dose of mansplaining

Jack: exactly that's how i really feel. i-you

 

know i think that's what a lot of people on

the internet are missing is there's just not

 

enough mansplaining there and i think it would

really help help twitter a lot

 

Bo: actually i think there's plenty of mansplaining

(beat)

 

Jack: (sarcastically) "actually." uh but anyways

you know i like i said i don't want to get

 

too deep in the weeds on that because i think

we could do a pretty great episode just on

 

that later um

Bo: yeah let's put a pin in that

 

Jack: yeah put a pin in that. we'll circle

back later.

 

Bo: (laughs darkly) ugh.

Jack: but what i do want to say is you know

 

the other thing that you were sort of touching

on um and certainly the article does about

 

how like typically a lot of men have needed

something else to get them to the point of

 

hanging out or or keeping in touch with each

other. like if that's going to see a game

 

or i really liked your comparison of going

to see a show because like yeah i also rarely

 

go to games. i certainly don't go over to

someone's house to watch the game on tv. um

 

but you know i will go to a show with them.

we'll go to a concert. um so yeah like that

 

or going to a bar or something and um i have

often said about myself that like my favorite

 

way of bonding with someone of like deepening

a friendship or keeping in touch like i would

 

go as far as to say like my "love language"

in a friendship platonic kind of love way

 

is like collaboration with people. um i like

working on projects and making something creative

 

with cool people and with my friends and it

wasn't until i read that article i started

 

being like oh maybe that's not as noble as

i thought. maybe that's my crutch, of like

 

that that's me not being able to just naturally

have friendships i'm i have to like pull this

 

other thing in uh and i don't know that i

consciously did that with this podcast but

 

i would say like what you were saying earlier

like i equally was like oh Bo's really cool

 

i want to be better friends with Bo but i

don't want to freak him out. uh and then at

 

some point we decided to do a podcast and

well that really worked out

 

Bo: thanks microphone!

Jack: (laughs) it's it's it's it's every like

 

man security blanket is it a podcast microphone

Bo: no that that's that's a good point because

 

like one thing that i've been thinking about

um a lot like not not even just since reading

 

this article but since the since the pandemic

is you know in some cases my friendships have

 

have gotten stronger and in other cases it's

just been exposed how much work needs to go

 

into them. um like i i think a lot about uh

my friends that i had--i still have them.

 

um sorry dear listeners i might get a little

sad boy here. um but like my really close

 

friends from texas i don't talk to as much

as as i should as i would like to and i think

 

part of that is is rooted in what like what

you just mentioned and these are guys that

 

i was in bands with uh or or at least in one

band for a good chunk of my high school years

 

and they're like you know my closest friends

i was spending every day with them. you know

 

we practiced every weekend if not more. and

then i left for college. and i tried to to

 

maintain the friendship but at some point

it just became too hard or i became too busy

 

or i just felt bad for moving and we kind

of drifted apart and so i'm just like because

 

of all this i'm just more aware than ever

i think of the work that i need to do to try

 

and rebuild those relationships um and the

work that that is currently doing like the

 

the the guy that played drums uh in that band

like he and i i never talk to people on the

 

phone. i hate hate talking on the phone. uh

you know i i--

 

Jack: podcast is fine apparently. phones no.

Bo: well here's the thing uh when i'm talking

 

on the phone i have to hold the thing and

i don't like having uh i don't like losing

 

like the use of an arm that is there it's

the weirdest thing but it's the same reason

 

why i don't like calling people while i'm

doing grocery shopping is because then i have--

 

Jack: oh i will not do that

Bo: and i don't like using umbrellas because

 

then i have an arm gone um

Jack: i finally came around to umbrellas but

 

it was a similar thing. but yeah i know i

i i am i guess i am actually weirder about

 

phone calls than i realize because i will

like only call people preferably if i'm just

 

like in my bedroom. like i don't like people

to overhear me. i will not do it in a public

 

space or if i'm with other people or grocery

shopping or something like no way.

 

Bo: yeah like i i am super weird about it

and it has to be exactly the right moment

 

and that sort of stuff but i've noticed that

i'm chipping away at some of those weirdnesses

 

uh with with my relationship to phone calls

because i've been talking to this guy more

 

often um it's it could still be more often

but more often than it has been. um on the

 

other end of things here in new york you know

i was i was in a band and i still i still

 

am in the band but we haven't played a show

in over a year and so the the relationship

 

there is something that we've had to kind

of like reimagine and i think that that kind

 

of comes uh brings in some of the solutions

you know or or evolutions that are brought

 

up in this article which is the fact that

we have group chat on facebook and we'll just

 

shoot the shit and just you know send each

other memes or videos or jokes and then every

 

once in a while though you will get the life

update. you know we'll get the chat dump.

 

and um i look forward to that because i don't

know even though so many of my friendships

 

were structured around "what's the activity?"

the activity taking place at least like laid

 

the groundwork for the conversations that

we could have. you know i i've thought of

 

my relationship with friendships with with

other men is kind of a hybridized version

 

of what this article talks about where i would

do the activity in order to get the face to

 

face. like i would i would go to the show

in order to have a deep meaningful conversation

 

after the show or something like that or and

or go to the bar in order to just like you

 

know really like get in deep and and have

like a real talk as i'm sure you can attest

 

(laughs) but--

Jack: yeah i was gonna say like i do love

 

ipas but i wasn't going to dive bars just

to have an overpriced ipa when we were hangin

 

out

Bo: exactly um and i think that that is you

 

know that that's kind of the the thing now

is now we're learning how to still get there

 

but in in different scenarios so like you

know a couple weeks will go by and we're just

 

like you know talking shit and ribbing each

other or whatever in this group chat and then

 

like something really cool will happen and

we'll have like a real conversation about

 

that thing. um and it's all good i'm not discounting

the other stuff i'm just saying that that

 

that's like uh that's like the the the finding

out that the chocolate bar you got is chocolate

 

and raspberry. you know that's the raspberry

filling.

 

Jack: wait so that's a good thing in your

book?

 

Bo: you don't like dark chocolate and raspberry?

Jack: i mean i i guess that sounds good but

 

in a candy bar i think i would just prefer

if it were just dark chocolate.

 

Bo: all right fair enough. different strokes

for different folks--

 

Jack: like a cake! that sounds like a great

cake.

 

Bo: yeah cool all right. that that's that's

like that's like getting a great slice of

 

cake and then you find out halfway through

that it's actually an ice cream cake.

 

Jack: oh yeah that's that's great!

Bo: yeah it is extra special. yeah so that's

 

what i'm saying is the group chat is the cake.

the moments where the group chat turns to

 

the deeper conversations and the stronger

connections that's the ice cream

 

Jack: wow. i i do want to ask you about um

something you brought up when we were discussing

 

this before we recorded um which is some of

and sounds like not your group chat but some

 

of the other ways um that we've been trying

to find solutions to maintain friendships

 

during this time um you were saying are a

little bit more... like they feel a little

 

bit more forced or maybe like transactional

in a way and i'm i'm curious your thoughts

 

on that because i think that i have been struggling

with that as well. um i so much more prefer

 

if i could just like grab coffee or a drink

with someone, drink with someone or like hang

 

out at their house. um i do not like like

video calls or group chats or like any of

 

the ways that we have to keep in touch with

people these days are things that i i get

 

basically nothing out of. like it doesn't

feel like any sort of replacement for me as

 

like hanging out with someone

Bo: yeah i guess i i guess that's the other

 

side of the coin to to this experience is

that like you know there are so many ways

 

and it's been like this before the pandemic

because we live in the internet age in many

 

ways we're more connected than we've ever

been it's easier than ever to like send somebody

 

a meme or do a video chat even before zoom

was like our primary form of communication

 

between one another and that sort of thing.

um but something about those during the pandemic

 

makes things feel and and i i definitely did

say transactional at first but i think that

 

that's not the that's not the right word.

it's just it's it's it's less organic. like

 

you know if i was if this was another time

and another time of year for that matter.

 

you know let's say it's a it's a beautiful

spring day and we're commuting. i just wrapped

 

up at work and i'm leaving my office building

and i'm like you know what i don't feel like

 

going home yet? i can text a friend that i

know works in the area or that i can get to

 

pretty quickly and say hey do you want to

meet up for a drink? and boom you have a plan.

 

and you're going to have that friendship experience.

and now it is a little bit harder to do that

 

not that there's a lot more going on but because

the general feeling of being mid pandemic,

 

hopefully mid pandemic, hopefully further

than mid, hopefully there's an end to it soon,

 

but the feeling of being in this moment makes

everything feel much more exhausting and yeah

 

it means that as as much as my phone my relationship

with the phone has improved there are days

 

where i'll see that somebody's calling and

i'm just like i just can't do this right now

 

Jack: yeah

Bo: and so that means that then in order to

 

maintain that relationship i'm gonna have

to get i'm gonna have to text that person.

 

i'm gonna have to set up a time for us to

do a video chat. i'm gonna have to then commit

 

to that and not not back out and it makes

the friendship feel um business-like you know?

 

and i feel i feel like such a dick even saying

this because--

 

Jack: yeah i i fully feel that way saying

all of this

 

Bo: like friendship isn't a chore whether

whether it's something that i'm scheduling

 

with you or one of my friends from back in

texas or even a family member. it's not a

 

it's not a chore. the fact that that person

is in my life is not a chore, but having to

 

go through all these steps just to see them

and just to connect with them, that makes

 

it feel like a chore. and so i feel like that

it's you know while we have all these great

 

opportunities in front of us to connect it

feels harder to connect and it drains you

 

a little bit more because you're already kind

of drained

 

Jack: yes, i mean i i think yeah you hit on

a lot of points that really resonated for

 

me. um i i have often described myself as

like a reluctant extrovert. like if i had

 

my way, without any concern for my own mental

health, i would be a hermit away in the woods

 

and hardly ever talk to anyone and be perfectly

happy for months on end. um i say perfectly

 

happy but then as soon as i like hang out

with people like you know face to face hanging

 

out with people i get a boost in my mood.

like so much. so i know that it's good for

 

me but i don't often enjoy the process of

like planning it out, especially when i'm

 

very busy um as my work life since the pandemic

began a year ago has been. like i've been

 

the busiest i've ever been in my life. and

that's really tough when so many other people

 

in the world are less busy than they've ever

been um and so like i get really overwhelmed

 

with the idea of having to schedule anything,

even if it's fun and with someone i love,

 

it's really stressful for me to have to plan

it. so i think those times before where it's

 

like oh i happen to have some free time let's

let's do this organically and like hang out

 

with people works better um but also i feel

like when you were planning things pre-pandemic

 

in a a non-virtual space there was a recognition

that like there's a lot of effort being put

 

into that. we're both having to like commute

to somewhere or something um and so like i

 

guess you were both gonna honor it more? or

honor the the level of a commitment it was.

 

whereas now like if someone asks you to do

a video call it's it's harder to get out of

 

because like you can't say oh i've i'm going

somewhere i will be out or like oh it's too

 

much because what you're just at home anyways

can't you get on this video call? um and so

 

that's been an additional like frustrating

thing to me but... one thing that i'm interested

 

in um is like you were talking about both

for you and in the article that we read all

 

of these ways that like men have actively

been working on getting better at this which

 

is something that i i should do. i'm just

clearly a cranky old man who wants to be left

 

alone and i should work on that because it's

not good for your mental health, for mine

 

or for anyone's. um but even in working on

it like it's so easy in this time to fall

 

back onto those bad habits. um and and to

just like revert to the wanting to be left

 

alone even when you know you should be engaging

with other people

 

Bo: yeah that's been, i don't know that that

that's been something that i've definitely

 

been been struggling with because of that

like extra feeling of of exhaustion, is that

 

like it's it's just it's just easier to not.

uh

 

Jack: yeah which is not good

Bo: Yeah it sucks um---

 

Jack: i'm not proud of that feeling

Bo: yeah

 

Jack: but i feel it very intensely

Bo: yeah so like while i've been, it's it's

 

it's so weird. this this situation has made

everything about life raw and and just like

 

you know very uh, like it's like fluorescent

lit you know? uh you can see you can see all

 

this all the flaws and all the rough patches

and all that kind of stuff that you might

 

not have noticed when when other things were

going on or whether rather when this situation

 

wasn't going on. so like as nice as it is

and as obvious as it is um to to have opportunities

 

to to to work on rebuilding and strengthening

and maintaining friendships, it is also very

 

clear all the bad habits that like helped

build the scaffolding for for you know whatever

 

your current relationship statuses, stati,

are. um so it's it's it's i don't know um

 

i don't know. i'm i'm i fear i'm veering veering

off into downer territory

 

Jack: yeah we're definitely-- i led us there.

don't worry. talking about building scaffolding,

 

i wrote-- i built this scaffolding for this

to be bummer territory

 

Bo: but it's it's it's fine because it's it's

worth confronting. like i've i've had a lot

 

of really meaningful friendships i've been

lucky in that in that regard um that have

 

been tougher to maintain and it wasn't the

pandemic that did it. it was everything that

 

i did up to the pandemic that did it. um and

you know i i hope that we're a year in you

 

know i keep on because time is rubbery sometimes

i realize that we're a year and other times

 

it feels like still the second week. um and

i think about it as like you know maybe i

 

can use this time to do x y and z. uh so long

as we're still here maybe i can still use

 

that time but i am also very aware of of the

fact that like you know there there's there's

 

habit that that built it's itself into this

and because you know it it's actually kind

 

of a weird full circle thing. it's tough for

men to embark on friendships because they're

 

worried about coming on too strong. i feel

like it's also tough for men to restart friendships

 

because once the habits are there once the

scaffolding is there that puts you at arm's

 

length. it's it's hard to break it down and

it's hard to, it's hard to have them have

 

the momentum to break it down because you

don't want to come on too strong, at least

 

that's that's my experience. i i feel like

if if i can make a quick um not segue, tangent.

 

if i can do a quick tangent

Jack: go for it

 

Bo: i want to reiterate what what people who

are who have listened to our episodes are

 

should hopefully know already and that we're

not we're not experts by any means

 

Jack: (chuckles) yeah

Bo: a lot of the stuff that we talk about

 

is we saw some stuff that experts wrote about

or or or you know we learned something from

 

an expert and then we're just riffing on personal

experience but then i also want to highlight

 

something that you said earlier about um you

know we have all this, we should have all

 

this down time because we're we're at home

and you said you made a very pointed uh effort

 

to say i guess not not everybody is like that

uh so i i want to like acknowledge the fact

 

that we're both speaking from this this weird

place of privilege and the fact that yeah

 

we've have we have been working at home. i

i do wonder what it's like for people who

 

have been serving staff at bars that have

been opening and then closing then opening

 

and then closing or people who work at grocery

stores or postal workers or construction workers

 

or any of those other uh fields where they're

deemed essential and they've been they've

 

been going into work. and you know maybe their

relationships are a little bit different because

 

they've been seeing people that they would

see every day, still to to a degree every

 

day. um so me i don't know. i don't know where

i'm going with that i just kind of want to

 

acknowledge it, but it does it does bring

in bring to mind an interest an interesting

 

potential like socio-economic class aspect

that we might be grappling with for the next

 

five to ten years.

Jack: from the people i know who you know

 

are essential workers and have been working

on and off if not this whole time um the impression

 

i have is that overall it's still lonely uh

and maybe in part because the the dominant

 

narrative is that people are home and bored

and it's like that is not everyone's reality

 

so you feel kind of cut out of that um and

still like under appreciated um and you know

 

not having access to your social life aspect

of things, even if you're being you know you're

 

having to go into work. but one thing that

maybe is happening in some of those situations

 

is uh those weaker ties of social relationships

um that you and i were talking about from

 

another article that we found, an article

in the atlantic talking about how there's

 

like whole categories of friendship that are

gone now and the main one that this article

 

talks about is those sorts of you know it's

not quite friendship maybe depending on the

 

type of person you are you would define it

friendship or not but it's like co-workers

 

or like people that you see every day but

you don't necessarily know like someone who

 

goes to the gym at the same time as you um

and just sort of those chance encounters that

 

a lot of people are not having that anymore

and like what's the effect going to be on

 

those people who are not having that? and

is there any benefit um that people who are

 

still getting those experiences that they're

getting from that?

 

Bo: yeah that that that's a good point. it

is it is really weird... you know one of the

 

things that has changed since we did our last

episode is i actually started a new job. um

 

which is very exciting but it feels super

weird starting a new job right now um because

 

like the people that i've met i can tell are

awesome and i'm super duper looking forward

 

to working with them but it's lacking that

like water cooler feeling or that ability

 

to like walk over to somebody's desk to ask

them a question or that just like running

 

into them in the hall and and you know it's

it's strange to to say that you're missing

 

small talk because i know the cool kid thing

is to hate small talk, but at the same time

 

like these are um basic elements of human

interaction that provides so much structure

 

and they make you feel seen they make other

people feel seen. it's it's it's it's actually

 

kind of weird like you're talking about how

like you could live in a hermit, you could

 

live as a hermit in somewhere in the woods

by yourself and be totally fine and in my

 

head i was like i could probably do that too

but i wouldn't necessarily be fine so much

 

as that i wouldn't know that i wasn't fine.

and it's like--

 

Jack: i mean that might be more accurate to

my experience as well

 

Bo: it's like i kind of imagine that uh some

of these interactions of of like the weaker

 

ties and the acquaintances and that sort of

thing it's it's almost like um... if you imagine

 

reading a comic book without the without the

inks and without the outlines... like how

 

weird would superman look without that thick

black border that defines you know where he's

 

where he stops and where the background begins?

and i feel like for some of our interactions

 

um these relationships with people who are

acquaintances and might be just part of your

 

daily routines, like i actually like the example

of the person that you see at the gym every

 

day uh because they just happen to be at the

same time. like that's part of your rhythm.

 

and like when you're missing that even something

that seems so innocuous and so you know um

 

what's what's another i don't know why i need

another synonym for innocuous. i do this all

 

the time i already said the word i don't need

an extra word to say the word. uh but when

 

when you're missing something that's that

uh basic um... it can just it can just kind

 

of like throw you off your game.

Jack: yeah i the one of the hardest things

 

for me or like the thing that i missed the

most when the pandemic first started was uh

 

the bar trivia that i host every monday. that

was for a lot of reasons but the biggest thing

 

that kept hitting me in my head was i was

going to miss all of the servers at the bar

 

who like i didn't have their numbers. i don't

know their last name. like i had no way to

 

contact them and maybe that was part of it

was just like it was kind of like they were

 

just gone but like i like they were great.

they're some of my favorite people. i loved

 

seeing them every week and like i would stop

in the bar when i wasn't hosting just so i

 

could maybe see them if they were on a shift.

um like we formed great relationships over

 

the years of me hosting there and then they

were just gone. uh and unfortunately that

 

that bar has weathered the storm and they

were able to like keep everyone on or like

 

hire them back and stuff and so i have seen

some of them again and that was like the best

 

feeling ever when i got to see a few of them

last fall but yeah it's sort of those those

 

weaker ties. like i wouldn't really i i guess

because again i feel like they would think

 

i am weird of like if i called them my friend

um but they were people that were in my life

 

and an important part of my life and then

all of a sudden they were just gone

 

Bo: yeah and i i just want to, so we keep

on saying weaker ties the title of the article

 

uh is "the pandemic has erased entire categories

of friendship" and that's by amanda mull in

 

the atlantic and the weaker ties thing that

she brings up is a coin, is a phrase that

 

another uh a sociologist coined at some point

in the 70s. so we're not trying to say that

 

these are weak ties. it's just the term that

somebody applied to these types of relationships

 

um but it's it's it's really interesting to

think about you know how how we miss those

 

sorts of things um and you know again like

that's something that you don't get in your

 

zoom calls! that's something you don't get

there's there's no background noise. there

 

are there's no there's no crowd. there's no

um you know it's actually funny so so... way

 

way way back in the day i took uh a course

that was like i can't remember what it's called...

 

i'm going to i'm going to call it anthropology

of religion. it wasn't called that but it

 

was an anthropology course about religion

and there's this concept that got brought

 

up in it called collective effervescence and

that's uh bas-- the the way i remember being

 

described is like when you are... because

it was a religion course when you're when

 

you're at a religious service of some sort

and you feel moved to join in the group. so

 

like even if you're kind of agnostic and you

go to like a catholic mass and they start

 

doing a hymn that just totally slaps and you

start singing the hymn even though you're

 

not super religious that's an example of it

but then it got broadened out to like you're

 

not a sports fan but you end up finding yourself

at a football game and someone does a really

 

beautiful play and the crowd goes wild and

then next thing you you realize is you are

 

in the crowd and you are also going wild.

uh it's these kind of... collective experiences

 

that have a habit of of kind of pulling you

into them. and uh these are the things that

 

we're missing right now. so even these quote

unquote weaker ties of of people that you

 

see at the bar, of people that you see at

the gym, of people that you run into in the

 

hallway. we're missing that greater sense

of collectivity

 

Jack: i love that that. i mean that's a great

phrase. collective effervescence. i love the

 

word effervescence. but that feeling uh at

least as you illustrated it like i i have

 

felt that so many times uh and i think that

is maybe one reason why i like really have

 

had some trouble with um all of these virtual

replacements because for me it was so often

 

i did not have an interest in whatever the

main activity was or something like that i

 

just wanted to be with people um and even

not necessarily participating as like talking

 

to everyone there, just sort of being there

and being in the vibes with everyone else

 

who was there.and now when it's like a virtual

thing it is much more about the thing and

 

everyone takes their turn talking and like

that sort of you know? it's very and that's

 

regimented. and it's harder to just be like

yeah

 

Bo: regimented! that's the word! that, it's

not transactional. not forced. not a chore.

 

regimented. thank you!

Jack: yeah i mean like i'm so i'm notorious

 

for like following falling asleep at gatherings

(both laugh) um and i think this should be

 

received as a compliment personally. uh because

it's like i it's that i'm just like comfortable

 

being with my friends. it's like i am at this

thing because i love and care about all of

 

you and want to spend time with you, um not

because like i only came because i like this

 

movie that we're watching or something but

screw all of you. like no i'm there because

 

i wanna be with people and be with you people

specifically and that's a harder feeling to

 

achieve virtually

Bo: yeah

 

Jack: also it's much more obvious if you fall

asleep on a zoom call then in the corner of

 

a room

Bo: (laughs) the chat just starts lighting

 

up and it's the it's a letter n over and over

and over

 

(laughs)

Jack: oh we we should start wrapping this

 

up but i wanted to bring up one more thing

sort of on the note of kind of like checking

 

our privilege um and this could be specific

to me. i have a hunch that it's not, but you

 

know when we were talking about maybe doing

this episode i was trying to reflect and be

 

like are like, have i been keeping in touch

less--- and actually this is the point is

 

not on me but people who have been reaching

out to me and trying to keep in touch like,

 

what is the gender break down here? and there

are definitely uh some like men in my life

 

who have been making an effort here and there

um as you and i were talking about we're trying

 

to make efforts, but the ones who have done

it either naturally or intentionally, regularly

 

are all like women and non-binary people.

um and those are the people that are like

 

maintaining these friendships and as much

as like maybe i do want to be this isolated

 

hermit or something as we were discussing,

like i know that it is good for me to continue

 

being in touch with people and hanging out

with them virtually or going for walks or

 

whatever um and yet again, at least for a

lot of people i know, it seems to be like

 

the women or other marginalized genders who

are doing the emotional labor here and the

 

work, of like men are in some cases benefiting

from that without maybe doing as much of it.

 

uh and so that's a thing that i need to reckon

with and remember in my own life and maybe

 

be a bit more proactive uh in reaching out

to people as well and not just waiting for

 

people in my life to reach out to me because

inevitably it's it's often like people who

 

are already doing the other emotional labor

in other aspects of their life

 

Bo: yeah that's that's a that's a really good

point to highlight. like so you know dear

 

listeners i'm married so i i live with a person

i'm never entirely alone. uh so long as i'm

 

i'm here and i'm one of those cheese balls

who lucked out and married his best friend.

 

so like i have one friendship that is really

strong and will always be really strong um

 

but i think that um it's become evident that

basically you know my wife had to do the additional

 

emotional labor long before this of letting

me know that i suck at being a friend to my

 

other friends

Jack: Whoa

 

Bo: and like honestly that that i feel like

that's one of the best things about having

 

a best friend is that a a a a good friend

will be like a friend friend tends to be like

 

supportive all the time and a good friend

will call you out a little bit and a best

 

friend will call you out when you need it

you know? and so part of what i'm trying to

 

do and what i should be trying a lot harder

to do in maintaining friendships is being

 

reminded by this person and this actually

came up in the the the first article that

 

we were talking about that uh men who were

married or in long-term relationships for

 

a lot of them that was kind of like that's

the goal is is you you found your partner

 

and that's the only pro-- the other the only

other person you need in your life. and my

 

wife has reminded me that that's not a healthy

way to to go about things.

 

Jack: yeah

Bo: that you know you need other people and

 

other people need you in in in in their lives

in some way or another um. so i'm i i guess

 

i'm i'm sorry that she had to do yet another

bit of emotional labor uh but i think i think

 

that i'm not entirely sure where i'm where

i'm going with this but uh it it is something

 

that is kind of on us as men to be aware of

that and to you know at least try to meet

 

people halfway so that folks who are already

drained and are already maintaining friendships

 

don't have to do the additional steps of reminding

you that you have friendships that you need

 

to that you need to maintain

Jack: yeah you know

 

Bo: does that make sense?

Jack: no totally. yeah because and it's it's

 

not always on gender lines it's different

types of personalities and different things

 

people are going through too, but i i did

just feel like it was maybe important to bring

 

up like you know we we talked a lot about

relationships of of men together (chuckles)

 

male-male friendships um but you know men

can and should have relationships with people

 

of other genders too. um

Bo: right

 

Jack: and think about those dynamics but uh

to end just on a little bit more of a lighthearted

 

note uh this has reminded me of---this is

going to be total not even humble bragging

 

but just like bragging here but i was at uh

an event several years ago hosted by the obama

 

foundation and so the obamas were there and

barack obama was sitting in the audience watching

 

things and michelle was on stage um being

interviewed by someone i forgot who was interviewing

 

her but they started talking about um friendships

and they got on a thing about how men suck

 

at having friendships. uh i think maybe it

started with like, you know you know michelle

 

of how he handled all the pressures of being

first lady and all the things that you have

 

to do? and she was talking about like her

girlfriends and and how they're a great support

 

for her and then that kind of transitioned

into like literally calling out barack in

 

the audience and just being like, you have

one friend! like get it together. you need

 

more friends. like she was just calling him

out from the stage to the point the moderator

 

was like okay uh okay. but it was hilarious

and it was just it was uh i think it was also

 

just funny to see him get called out on something

that clearly a lot of men have--are not great

 

at

Bo: dude they did a whole movie about it!

 

uh i love you man like--

Jack: Oh yeah. i never saw it

 

Bo: oh oh it's fantastic! um but it it i mean

it doesn't you know maybe maybe it doesn't

 

quite get into this concept the way that we

are but it's true that i feel like--i guess

 

i can't say it's true with a blanket you know

men are not a monolith um but i do think that

 

it is across across some some part of the

board uh harder for men to maintain meaningful

 

friendships because we just feel like we don't

need them and we kind of forget to take care

 

of ourselves in that way. so... you know my

my homework is to to keep at it and you know

 

i recognize that i'm exhausted but so is everyone

else and you know whatever... i like to think

 

at least like a little bit goes a long way.

whatever shred you can manage whether that's

 

replying to a text or actually having a phone

call or or even just like, i don't know...

 

memes are funny. um when we were talking kind

of in the in the in the pre-show one of the

 

things that you brought up was like how how

meme groups can become kind of toxic and like

 

you know really uh really bro-y and really

insulated, which is true, but i also think

 

that meme groups and other affinity groups

like you know as a musician like brands that

 

do stuff about their gear or something like

that, it gives you something that you can

 

send to a friend and even if it's just something

that it takes you moving your thumb twice

 

to do, it lets them know that you're thinking

about them. and it that that that can you

 

know that won't that won't fix your friendship.

that won't necessarily strengthen it, but

 

it will probably help keep it from falling

apart.

 

Jack: yeah. i i i do a lot of that. i think

you can always tell that like you have entered

 

a certain circle of of my friendship when

you get late night random links and memes

 

to things. um i used to do a lot more of it

actually. i but i always feel kind of like

 

you know when your grandma would cut things

out of the newspaper and send them to you

 

in the school mail. I feel like this the modern

equivalent of doing that, which to me is like

 

a huge sign of yeah like a sign of deep love.

it's like i i'm thinking about you and i think

 

that you would like this and i want you to

see it

 

Bo: mhmm. well, dudes, send the memes. have

the phone calls. don't stretch yourself too

 

thin. it's okay but you know you need you

need people. it's okay to need people.

 

Jack: yeah even the most introverted or ones

who want to just go live in the woods as a

 

hermit uh need people too and we gotta remember

that and it's part of taking care of ourselves

 

Bo: for the record i think you'd make a great

hermit

 

Jack: thank you i think so too

Bo: like i i think you'd be one of those hermits

 

that like never fully loses his humanity,

just enjoys the solitude and then like when

 

a horror movie happens next door and you find

yourself having to like take in a bloody teenager

 

or something like that you'll be the guy who

fought, who fends off the the the killer

 

Jack: wow that is such a high compliment,

thank you,

 

Bo: yeah with like a shovel or something like

that oh my god!

 

Jack: the shoveler!

Bo: the--well yes the shoveler from mystery

 

men, but also i'm thinking of the old dude

from home alone

 

Jack: Hmmmm yeah

Bo: that's that's a good non-toxic hermit,

 

at least by the end of the movie because he

is so isolating but when when he like you

 

know when he comes to kevin's aid-spoiler

again-and eventually reconnects with his son

 

like i feel like that's a good that's a good

thing to aim for

 

Jack: yeah yeah for sure. i was thinking of

like luke from gilmore girls because i just

 

finished re-watching all that

Bo: yeah luke from gilmore girls is a king.

 

like--

Jack: i know. goals.

 

Bo: like hands down like yeah could he be

a little bit more sensitive here and there?

 

could he be a little bit more uh?

Jack: He makes mistakes yeah

 

Bo: yeah exactly but he learns from them.

he picks up his baseball cap, dusts it off,

 

puts it back on on backwards and then like

you know makes pancakes with a wrench

 

(laughs)

Jack: (sighs) all right i uh i i think we

 

like ended on really inspirational notes here

and there and then always took it back to

 

a completely weird place, which i love. let's

go full weird now and move on to just the

 

tip.

(music and countdown play)

 

Jack: so just the tip, for anyone listening

for the first time is our opportunity, because

 

we haven't been talking for an hour already,

it is our opportunity uh to air anything that

 

we've been feeling this week, get something

off of our chest, but we don't want to go

 

too wild with it get too carried away. we

each get just one minute uh to just like...

 

wha- brush the surface? is that a phrase?

i'm trying to--

 

Bo: skim the surface?

Jack: skim the surface! and get just the tip

 

of a point. we're not going to dive in like

full episode hour length but just one minute

 

of uh something that you want to bring to

the table so are you ready?

 

Bo: i am ready

Jack: go!

 

Bo: all right so what i'm going to talk about

very briefly is the fact that i (deep voice)can

 

not wait for it to get warm again. do you

hear me out there? i cannot wait. whoever

 

controls the weather because i sometimes believe

government conspiracies like that just just

 

just just flip the switch. um and it makes

me feel bad because i should enjoy you know

 

winter and the fact that i live in a place

that actually experiences seasons and that

 

sort of stuff but usually by the time it's

mid-february which is when we're recording

 

this i'm just like flat out done. the days

are too short. i can't go outside. i can't

 

even run. i don't want to exercise at all.

all i want to do is sit in my little room,

 

drink, and eat stuff that is bad for me and

i just you know this sounds grumpy and ranty

 

but i want to flip the-- flip ,reverse the

polarity real quick and just say that i'm

 

really hopeful for spring. um during year

one of the pandemic one of the things that

 

really uh helped me get through was that shift--(alarm

sounds)

 

Jack: time is up!

Bo (speaking quickly) when we got into spring

 

and summer and everything was warm and even

though it was still really bad we could go

 

outside at least!

Jack: there you go. summed it up real good

 

at the end there. i was like watching the

timer go down and you were at like five seconds

 

when you were like but to flip it to a positive

side. i'm like no no positivity allowed in

 

just the tip! it is. positivity is always

allowed you can express whatever emotion you

 

want during your one minute ,which you you

uh went for the breadth of emotions there

 

Bo: oh it's because you know i i've realized

um during this time that i'm one of those

 

people that sometimes doesn't--they don't

feel one thing they feel everything at once

 

and so sometimes you just kind of have to

have to grab things as they flip by

 

Jack: yeah

Bo: it's like my emotions are like a school

 

of fish

Jack: wow (swishing sound with mouth) and

 

then nothing?

Bo: sometimes actually yeah. oh that's another

 

episode. we'll get into ennui another day

folks. uh all right are you ready?

 

Jack: yeah

Bo: okay

 

Jack: tell me when

Bo: your time begins now!

 

Jack: um yeah i i'm just i just i'm gonna

go super meta um i have been trying to think

 

all day of what i want to fill this one minute

with and i got nothing. um just like at the

 

top of the show i didn't know what to say

about what i have done since october and when

 

people ask me what i've been up to i don't

know what to say. i will sometimes mention

 

some work that i've been doing uh i don't

know what else to say. i think because most

 

of what i am doing in my life is work and

then maybe i'll watch a tv episode at the

 

end of the night and like that's kind of my

life right now and i'm mostly fine with that

 

um but yeah i maybe this is my version of

like hitting a wall in the pandemic is just

 

like not really knowing uh not really having

anything that i'm very excited about i guess

 

is maybe part of it and it's not quite to

the point of bugging me except when i am prompted

 

to discuss something and i guess maybe it's

what we were saying about um being more free

 

to (high pitched squeaking noise)-- say that---oh

no

 

(squeaking continues)

Bo: oh my god how do i make it stop? how do

 

I make it stop?!

Jack: (laughing) it really does sound like

 

uh like a sped up version of a tape rewinding

or something. what?

 

Bo: supposedly it's r2d2

Jack: oh! yeah it's a very tinny version of

 

r2d2

Bo: yeah it's coming on my phone speaker.

 

don't sue us disney!

Jack: disney well... i don't know the mouse

 

is always watching. i was gonna say that they're

definitely not listening but they probably

 

are. (exhales)

all i was getting to at the end there was

 

just uh you know the idea of like similar

to how it's kind of okay to say that you're

 

not okay right now uh like why do we have

to ask (laughs) how people are doing? i guess

 

but something like that like i just... i'm

fine but i don't want to like have to come

 

up with something for people

Bo: yeah i i i get that

 

Jack: like i like there's not anything exciting

happening in my life and that's okay

 

Bo: yeah exactly we don't we don't have to

be coming up with like content to entertain

 

our friends and other relationships with necessarily.

um it's just it's enough to be there it's

 

enough to it's enough to be trucking along.

um i think is is something that that we can

 

we could stand to work on and internalize

uh we don't always have to have big news or

 

or something you know terrible happen that

we can commiserate about. sometimes it's it's

 

it's enough to just be there

Jack: oh man i'm just realizing this is kind

 

of going back to our main segment so i won't

get into this too long but um like again the

 

regimented thing of virtual hangouts and textual

interactions the like, how are you? what have

 

you been up to? is like much more present.

like that happens at you know parties and

 

other gatherings too but there's so many more

people there and it's a bit more fluid. like

 

it would be very common for me to go to a

gathering with more than just two people where

 

i never really mentioned anything that i've

been up to because like my turn didn't come

 

because there weren't turns there was just

natural conversation happening. whereas now

 

we have very much like we're on the zoom call

and we go one by one and you talk about what

 

you're doing it's like my job is producing

content. i don't want to produce content for

 

this conversation about my life

Bo: i mean honestly, to to be real with you

 

that's why i use that meta that analogy, is

like you you you are a content producer. you

 

don't have to have that pressure in your daily

interactions too.

 

Jack: yeah let me just sit and listen to how

you're all doing. i want to hear about your

 

life. tell me more about what you're up. to

that would be great.

 

Bo: jack will be pioneering the new lurker

mode in zoom and google meets and--

 

Jack: give me lurker mode on every social

media platform. i was thinking about this

 

with clubhouse earlier today. i was like i

mean i don't find that many discussions that

 

i really want to join on clubhouse anyways.

there's they're really trying to they got

 

to break through the bro culture happening

there. uh but when i do i'm like scared to

 

join because people can see your avatar and

that you're in the room and i don't want people

 

to know that i'm in the room and also what

if they call on me to talk? i don't want to

 

talk on one of those calls! i just want to

listen. like the fact that there's all these

 

think pieces about social media going into

this audio only format. first of all where's

 

the accessibility in that? and second i don't

like people hearing me say things! i understand

 

i'm saying this on a podcast right now, but

like (laughter) apart from that. i don't,

 

in a non-content producing way. i don't like

people overhearing what i have to say and

 

so i would not join an audio conversation-based

kind of social media platform. this was apparently

 

my real just the tip

Bo: yeah jeez we got we got we got a double

 

dose of tip there um

(Jack laughs)

 

Jack: yeah this is apparently---what we've

been talking about is we think that we have

 

no emotions or nothing to say or don't want

to talk to people and then we've eventually

 

got a crack down under the surface to find

it apparently

 

Bo: yeah yeah

Jack: deep deep through that half a mile of

 

ice where they found those ancient sea critters

Bo: I'm sorry, what?

 

Jack: that's a very niche headline to reference.

Bo: Yeah, I'm gonna need you to send me that

 

headline.

Jack: i'll put that in the show notes too

 

Bo: yes please do. uh but yeah i think i think

you know it all kind of comes full circle.

 

you know men in a lot of ways we have work

to do in how we maintain our friendships,

 

but society because men are not a monolith

and neither is anybody else society um we

 

could stand to re-examine what we think a

friendship in a relationship constitutes.

 

it doesn't have to be this ex---this exchange

of of news. maybe it's just enough to sit

 

next to somebody, when we can, and maybe it's

just enough to send something that means that

 

we're thinking about somebody since we can't.

and i don't know if i'm trying to think of

 

something poignant to end on but it's not

really kind of

 

Jack: no that's--

Bo: but that's okay!

 

Jack: yeah also that was fairly poignant.

um more more than i would get. i definitely

 

took on the role of uh grumpy old man in this

in this episode.

 

Bo: i'd like to say old man with a point.

Jack: you calling my head pointy?

 

Bo: yes yes i'm i'm i'm i'm i'm mocking your

appearance

 

Jack: as you do. you uh you're always mocking

people's appearances, Bo Méndez, that is

 

who you are.

Bo: not unless they're ted cruz

 

Jack: well, had to end on that note. um folks

at home try to guess what day we're recording

 

this podcast. unfortunately i bet you can't

because i doubt what we saw today is the last

 

of it

Bo: yeah i hate ted cruz every day.

 

Jack: i mean yeah of course. uh well on that

note i suppose we should go um thank you all

 

so much for listening to this very long podcast.

our last episode was very long too. i'm gonna

 

use the excuse this time that we haven't uh

talked in podcast form or as friends for quite

 

a while um and so it gets to be this long

and hopefully people enjoyed listening and

 

are still listening here at the end. if you

are, thanks for sticking around. if you want

 

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Bo: uh you can find me at the handle "el"

 

underscore "enmascarabo." that's enmascara

bo with a b. not a d as in proper spanish.

 

or you can find jack at jack is not a bird

Jack: bo do you have any final thoughts or

 

did we just decide that neither of us are

capable of final thoughts tonight?

 

Bo: well i i think the final thought is that

we should we uh we don't necessarily always

 

have to come up with something. we don't necessarily

always have to uh have to produce something

 

in that sense and maybe our relationships

would be stronger um when we have an opportunity

 

you know in terms of global scenarios but

also in terms of uh what we allow ourselves

 

uh what we give ourselves slack for uh to

not necessarily have to have to produce something

 

and to just let things be. uh but but mainly

thank you for for as always taking the time

 

to to do this with me. um and also for for

doing so much of the of the backend of finding

 

a nifty new tool to to do things through uh

online and in the isolated conditions

 

(music begins to play)

so yeah thank you yeah hopefully this this

 

turns out well

Jack: yeah thank you for taking the time too.

 

thanks for having this conversation with me.

it's always good and self-enlightening if

 

that's a phrase

Bo: Indeed.

 

(music plays out